The Next Stage in Life

The Next Stage in Life

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I’m about to get real personal in this post. I want to use this blog more as a journal and that starts today.

Tony and I are trying to have a baby and I’m going through fertility treatments. I honestly don’t know why more women don’t talk about infertility. It seems like every person I talk to has either gone through it or knows someone who has. Why does it have to be such a taboo topic and why do some people tell me not to talk about it? WE ARE TRYING TO HAVE A BABY – it’s all I think about and it’s a huge part of my life. I want to be able to share openly and let my family and friends support me. So here I am…getting real.

When I first found out I would need fertility treatments I was actually kind of relieved to find out so early on. We had only been trying for six months and I know some couples try for years without going to see their doctor. I would never be able to do that. I’m a planner who sets goals and makes them happen. Some might call me a control freak – okay, I can definitely be a control freak.

The hardest part is the unknown. Will it happen tomorrow, in 3 months, 6 months, a year from now? It’s also a little hard to see so many friends getting pregnant or having kids lately. I do get a little disheartened and feel frustrated, out of control and yes – jealous.

This past week was really tough because I had an allergic reaction to the meds I was given. It started as a little rash on my right hip and ended up going all over my body. Two nights ago I woke up so itchy I wanted to rip my skin off. My doctor didn’t originally want me to to go on steroids to help with the rash, but it had gotten so bad I ended up going on prednisone yesterday. Thank goodness he told me to finally take it because I was going crazy. It really felt like something was attacking my body. It’s only been one day on steroids and I already feel so much better.

Another difficult part has been slowing down. I was told to really take it easy, not exercise much, get more sleep, gain 10-15 pounds (which I’ve already done) and learn how to take better care of my body. It’s been tough, but I’m willing to do anything to eventually get pregnant. I’m learning new coping skills and I’ve realized that a long walk can be just as good as a tough run.

I’m really excited about this next stage in life and I have faith it will happen soon.

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  1. First of all I’m glad those steroids are helping with your rash. That rash sounded horrible! Second of all thanks for keeping it real. That shows what an honest and open person you are. You are doing your best and that’s as much as you can do. Enjoy your awesome walks and if you want to walk the track sometime, let me know. 🙂
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  2. I know several couples who have had problems getting pregnant. It is more common than it seems, and you were smart to see your doctor. One friend of mine ended up using a surrogate (and had twins!) and most others did eventually end up getting pregnant – thankfully there’s so many options and things that can help. From what my friends have shared about it, it can be a long, rough road so you SHOULD talk about it because you’ll want plenty of support, or even just an outlet to vent. I really hope the treatments work, and without any more side effects.

    • I’m glad everything worked out for your friend! I’ve also heard a lot of stories and how it can be an extremely long process so that’s why we started to early. It’s scary opening up about something so personal – but most people in the blogging community are extremely kind and don’t judge. Thanks for your support, Anne!

  3. Good luck! Like Anne said, there are so many options, I’m certain you and Tony will be parents – great parents! And even though I’m not in the same spot regarding parenthood, I’m really interested in all things related to pregnancy and childbirth (probably because my mom was a labor & delivery nurse), so please do share whatever you are comfortable sharing!
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    • Thanks, Maggie! I’ll definitely keep sharing. It’s nice to hear that even though you’re not in the same spot regarding parenthood you’re still interested. I have many friends who aren’t even close to being ready to have kids and I totally get it. It really scares me too, but I know I’m meant to be a mom. Hope to see you tomorrow morning!

      • Echoing Maggie’s sentiments there… pregnancy isn’t on my radar at all right now, but I’m always happy to listen and support friends who are trying.

  4. I have eczema and have had nasty rashes that required maximum strength steroid creams…it’s horrible! I feel your pain and happy to hear it is healing up!

    I will keep you and Tony in my thoughts and will send you good vibes. I can’t imagine what that process is like but I’ve seen a few co-workers go through it and it always came out positive!
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    • Thank you so much, Nina! I’m sorry to hear you’ve had to deal with nasty rashes too. I had no idea how bad they could be.

  5. Wow, I admire you so much (even more now) for opening up about this topic. Glad to hear the steroids helped with the rash because that would have driven me crazy too. I hope you keep us posted and soon (cross my fingers ) will share very good news. 🙂
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  6. Belated note, but I’m thinking positive things for you and Tony. 🙂
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