I have always tried to control things to manage my anxiety. When I was young I would constantly ask my parents questions about our plan for the day and never wanted anything unexpected to come up. I wanted to know what we were doing, when we were doing it, and I’m still very much like that today. I like to plan, make lists, cross things off, and obsess about everything that needs to get done. I’ve had enough therapy to know that my control issues are directly related to my anxiety.
Running helps lessen my anxiety and keeps me sane. Running has been my coping mechanism for the last 4 years. I’ve gone through a lot of ups and downs and running was something I could count on. It became my best friend and my therapy.
But there is so much more to life than running. I want to take this time of rest to learn how to trust God and believe that everything happens for a reason. I have faith that this experience will make me a stronger person and a stronger runner.
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I just saw the news. Sara, continue with your healing and you’ll be back stronger. My friend and training partner was booted last year, and she recently ran an awesome race with me. You have tons of people supporting you. I hope you know I’m one of them 🙂
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Thank you Chanthana! Your support through all of this means a lot to me. 🙂
I’m sorry your going through this, but I believe you will be a much healthier runner when it is over. I love you!
Thanks Mom!
New follower of your blog! I am so sorry to hear about your injury…I am on the other end of a stress fracture in my foot…but still the early other end. Still not what I was up to before the injury but working my way back slowly but surely! I definitely can understand this post…it was TOUGH to take the news and wanted nothing to do with the boot thing I had to wear. It was good though…it helped me re-assess why I love running and helped me remember that there is more to me than running. Good luck with the MRI!
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Thank you Julia! I will definitely be following your blog.
Glad to hear your foot is healing. Have you been able to start running again? I’m trying not to think about NOT being able to run and focus on what I CAN do. I’m thinking I might try swimming. At least it will be a new challenge. =)
I find that realizing you have no control can be just as comforting as trying to hold on to it. Little ant on the roller coaster can’t stop the ride but she
can sure have a good time 🙂
a good cry to her sister always helps too. Love you!
Good luck! Injuries are so overwhelmingly frustrating because they end up out of our control. I hope you find this time healing physically and emotionally.
Thanks Sarah! Have you ever been injured before?
This is exactly the kind of mindset you need to keep yourself in! Keep thinking like this and you’ll be recovered in no time.
I can 100% relate to that feeling of “needing” running in my life. Whatever you can do to stay positive, do it! And oddly, I’ve found that yoga can give me that same “centered” feeling that I get from running. I always do it on my rest days and it makes me feel great!
Best wishes for fast fast fast healing!
XO
Thanks Melissa. As soon as my doctor says it’s okay to do yoga you better believe I’ll be doing it almost everyday until I run again. 🙂